i will follow Him

So I'm not going to delete that last blog because I like being able to go back and read where I've been, see what place my heart's been in, at a particular time. But I don't know my plan for next year. I don't know the plan for my life. I don't know who I'm going to marry or where I'm going to be for sure.

What does it mean to follow your heart, or, follow your dreams?

I started reading a book Let Your Life Speak on vocation the other day, that says things like --

- Vocation does not come from willfulness. It comes from listening. I must listen to my life and try to understand what it is truly about - quite apart from what I would like it to be about.

Oh, there's some good quotes about living authentically and being true to yourself, that vocation is not something to pursue but a gift to receive. I don't know.

I have Philippians 4:4-8 by my bed and kept seeing "God is near," Phil 4:5. I desperately seek answers and security and love, and God is near, and God will provide the security I am seeking from things other than Him.

Rich Mullins sings a wonderful song so truthful it's haunting about the danger of following dreams and your heart but not God. Doesn't the scripture say, but seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and these things will be given to you...

Yes, it does.


"Maker of Noses" - Rich Mullins
I believe there is a place
Where people live in perfect peace
Where there is food on every plate
Where work is rewarded and rest is sweet
Where the color of your skin
Won't get you in or keep you out
Where justice reigns and truth finally wins
Its hard fought war against fear and doubt

And everyone I know wants to go there too
But when I ask them how to do it they seem so confused
Do I turn to the left?
Do I turn to the right?
When I turn to the world they gave me this advice

They said boy you just follow your heart
But my heart just led me into my chest
They said follow your nose
But the direction changed every time I went and turned my head
And they said boy you just follow your dreams
But my dreams were only misty notions
But the Father of hearts and the Maker of noses
And the Giver of dreams He's the one I have chosen
And I will follow Him

I believe there'll come a time
Lord, I pray it's not too far off
There'll be no poverty or crime
There'll be no greed and we will learn how to love
And children will be safe in their homes
And there'll be no violence out on the streets
The old will not be left alone
And the strong will learn how to care for the weak

And everyone I know hopes it comes real soon
But when I ask 'em where I'd find it they seem so confused
Do I find it in the day?
Do I find it in the night?
When I finally ask the world they give me this advice

Well they said boy you just follow your heart
But my heart just led me into my chest
They said follow your nose
But the direction changed every time I went and turned my head
And they said boy you just follow your dreams

I will follow Him. Him = God. God never changes. I can depend on Him, rest in Him.

Ruth 1:16 says:

Do not persuade me to leave you or go back and not follow you. For wherever you go, I will go, and wherever you live, I will live.

The Father of hearts and the Maker of noses
And the Giver of dreams He's the one I have chosen
And I will follow Him